Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Productive Stress

When it comes to motherhood, nothing is logical. Logically speaking it seems counterintuitive to have mini-me's running around who take up so much time and energy. They have your heartstrings tied so tight that you feel like you're giving up a major organ when you hand them over for their first day of school. And yet these are the very heartstrings that resonates with an indescribable joy and warmth from head to toe when they plant a sticky, genuine and unsought for kiss on your cheek.
So of course when you munchkin needs to go under general anesthesia you suffer panic attacks and anxiety such as you never truly felt except perhaps when you left home, college bound and became untethered to the familiar. It didn't matter that he'd been under it before successfully, or that it was really a minor procedure compared to the million other procedures there are - the slight risk is enough

It also might have to do with the fact that he HATES anything that smells remotely of a medical facility, let alone medical personnel. Inevitably there is screaming, kicking and growling. The last time he woke from the anesthesia it took three people to hold him down and he refused to calm down until all lines were out and he was in my arms. Then there's the added fact that he'll be hungry, REALLY hungry and this boy loves to eat.
All of this and more just had me in knots all night and through the day for his ABR hearing test. We had tried for months to get him to tolerate having headphones on his ears so that we might test his hearing the simple way. with so much delay in his speech we had to find out for sure, hence the need for all the stress.

We got there in plenty of time, I brought all his favorite toys and blanket. He kept up a constant whimper while checking in and any nurse who tried to approached him was met with banshee like screaming and vigorous waving of arms to keep them at bay. They finally opted to dose him with versed (similar to Valium) that had him super dopey, giggly and a little more compliant.
This video is of him drugged up but alert enough to know when the nurse knocks on the door. Notice the playfulness is gone again when he sees a nurse. The little stinker!

It turns out his hearing is normal!! Now we know for sure. Such a monkey!
Hooray for stress that is productive in some weird indirect way! Now if you'll all forgive me, I'm going to need a few days to recover!

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